I walk roughly 3 miles a day around my small cotton mill town. I love the history here. I love seeing my neighborhood. I enjoy watching their gardens grow, and even seeing and hearing the family pets behind their fenced in yards as they react to me walking by.
There is one dog, I'm not sure what his name is, he does not live behind a fence like the other dogs. The first time I met him on my walk, he was very sheepish and unsure. The moment he realized that I was not dangerous, his joy was very apparent. He jumped and twirled down the road in front of me. He'd spin and bounce his way down the hill. I had never seen a dog so full of joy and I've been around dogs my whole life!
Not a very good photo of him, he was so busy!
As I walked, I couldn't help but watch him, and naturally his antics brought joy to my morning walk!
So as I was walking and talking with the Lord, I started thinking about joy.
What is joy?
Merriam - Webster dictionary states: a feeling of great happiness, a source or cause of great happiness : something or someone that gives joy to someone, success in doing, finding, or getting something
I thought about the last two years of our life, there wasn't a whole lot of joy happening, and my sense of joy was pretty fickle, often controlled by circumstance. As I finished up my walk, the day got busy like it normally does. Later on in the evening, I started to again think about joy.
My mind naturally went to a very familiar bible verse.
Nehemiah 8:10 Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks,
and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve,
for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”
The story is about Nehemiah. He hears the ruin of Jerusalem and the wall that surrounded it. He went and rebuilt the wall, rebuilt it's government and went about spiritually rebuilding his people. After the wall was built, and the government was strengthened by righteous decrees, the Law of Moses was brought to the people. The people were hungry for the Word of God. They stood as Ezra, the priest, read the Law. The people, began to weep as they realized how far their lives had fallen away from God's way. They wept as they once again put God's word in the forefront of their lives. Ezra encouraged the people to seek Joy! The Joy of the Lord will strengthen them! The had been restored, and they can celebrate their restoration. The people gathered with great hunger for the Word of God.
I can relate to the people of Jerusalem at that time in history. My wife and I experienced our own world come crashing around us as our beloved church fell apart before our eyes. After 10 years total, with two in intense battle, we left bruised and broken, our whole way of living crashed around us.
Nehemiah and the people of God agreed to a covenant and separated themselves from the people around them. God asked us to lay down EVERYTHING! To take a season and walk away from institutional church. How would we live without church as we knew it? What about our wonderful friends? Both Jamie and I lived for our church, we spent 20 years giving all that we had to our local body.
How do we rebuild our life? How do we once again turn our hearts toward God's Word, and how in the world will we find joy?
Our life was numb for many months, we were only able to do the basic necessities of life. Slowly God unraveled our tangled up lives. We are still in the middle of the rebuilding. Jamie and I spend hours talking about our faith, and God's Word.
We are certain of a few things.
Rebuilding takes time.
Seeking the Lord directly takes time.
Reading the Word, and understanding it's intent, without agenda, takes time.
Being quiet and still is deeply painful, but what a treasure it brings!!! Both Jamie and I spend a great deal of time listening in the stillness of our lives.
and the Joy is starting!
I like the last definition of joy. "success in doing, finding, or getting something"
We are in the process of finding and getting something!
First and foremost, putting Christ first.
This is our journey. This is our story. And as much as I can, I will tell you what we are learning.
There is joy in the journey,
David